My late night thoughts

I'm already in love with writing things down..
So I thought I would share my late night thoughts.. Bed is where I think. It's my alone time. I don't have much time to myself.. I choose to be surrounded by the people I love. I struggle to be alone actually. I'm not used to it and it's completely foreign to me. But I'm learning to enjoy it. I've stopped talking on the phone whilst driving to work. I'm trying to go to bed earlier so I can have that extra hour. I chose to drive for 10 hours by myself instead of flying on a plane full of people. Smallish steps but steps all the same.

So what do i think about? I'm currently all about the future rather than the past. The last few weeks my thoughts have been unbelievably draining. Do I.. don't I... What will the consiquences be? Will I be happy with my decisions? Am I strong enough to not only make them but be strong enough to follow through and also stick to them?

Well I made it. I followed through with it and I'm 100% sure I will stick with it. No if's and no buts. I never thought you could be that proud of yourself. But I am. Proud.

This is the reason I'm choosing to only look towards the future. By looking into the past you can make yourself have regrets. Anxiety takes over and makes you question yourself. Doubt.

I will not have doubts. Not this time.

My future.
MY future is no one elses. I'm so excited to see what the future will bring. I have so many ideas and plans and they're zipping through my brain faster than I can type. I am so lucky to have my best friend to guide me through them.

Work. I hate it! I lie there thinking about excuses not to go in the next day. Then I remember I have no sick days. Therefore I will not get paid. My work isn't bad. Boring but not bad. I am not made for this kind of work. Accounts - boring. I have this personality that NEEDS social interaction. I can't be abused all day. It brings me down.

Slumber Parties - I think about them a lot. I will get into them tomorrow though.. I have thought enough tonight. Well.. I havent.. But my phone is going to die.